This has been on my mind for a while, so I guess I’ll just say it here.  I think its time for an explanation.

Back in December of 2016, I got an email stating that I was finally accepted into the baking/ pastry course I waited for two years to get in.  I essentially quit my job to pursue a better and higher education, but I knew my blog would suffer.  It was honestly hard to let go but it had to be done.  From the normal three full reviews a week down to one a week if I was lucky, I’m stressing out.  I went for it.  I took the opportunity knowing my blog will suffer but it had to be done.

February 2017, went to get my annual breast check up.  If you don’t know that story, you can read it here. I had a big lump growing and I knew it was there.  This time, it was slightly painful when my time of the month came but I was praying I wouldn’t have to do yet another surgery.  Ultrasounds done, sitting in the doctors office, waiting for good news.
“So, we’re going to have to remove this lump.  It’s getting too big, it has to come out.”
“Is there anyway we can wait for a year to remove this?  I have to attend school for a year.”
“No, you have to get this removed in the next three months, it’s getting too dangerous.”

I’m not going to lie,  I was broken when he said that.  Just when I thought things were looking up for me, I had to made a decision.  Gamble and do the surgery, pray I heal in four days to be able to go back to school or have to wait yet another year to possibly attend the course.  My bro and my boyfriend said I had no choice, health comes first.  Do the surgeon.  I wanted to run away but I knew if I did, they would tranquilize me, tie me up and bring my body to the hospital.  Fine, I’ll do it.  Luckily for me, things worked out with the school and I was able to do the work ahead of time and still be able to go back after I healed. 

It’s over.  After a fibroadenoma literally the size of a walnut came out, I was heal right?  Last time? No, NO.  They needed to make sure it won’t come back because they found something new.  Tissue sample, they need tissue sample.  So June 28, 2017 surgery again.  I knew I got this, it was just annoying I had to get it done again.  I’m still healing as we speak but at least this time it only took couple days to heal.

Okay, no more. Let me just cruise for a bit before life hits me again.  Life? Nope… grandpa just passed away today.

So if your wondering where the hell I am, I’m trying to survive.  Trying to survive in this game called life.  I’m sorry if I’ve been away from this blog, away from Instagram.  I barely have time to sleep and I’m trying to balance everything out.  Please be patient with me for a little bit.  I’m determined to find time for everything.  I’ll be back.  This isn’t goodbye, this is just an explanation. 

If you care enough to read this till the end, thank you. Thank you for sticking by me and trusting my judgement, thinking of me as a friend. I hope you all have a good day and please, stay healthy, hold your loved ones close.

-Christina

Written by Christina

    19 Comments

  1. Nailderella July 4, 2017 at 3:11 am Reply

    Hi Christina, I am sorry to hear this but for sure there are thousands more important things in life than the blog even if we put a lot of effort in it- I can’t deny this. I’ll be there patiently waiting for your come back but take the time you need for what is more important now.

    Your health is what is the most important and I’m happy to hear your bro and bf are there for you. I hope you’ll heal fast and everything will be fine! I can truly feel your pain and there are periods in life that are more difficult sadly. I hope you’ll be able to recover fully soon and wish you all the best!
    Also I’m really sorry about your grandpa, take time with your family and again, we’ll be waiting and welcome you back when you’re ready. I’m sending you lots of love and courage and wish you all the best!

    • Christina July 8, 2017 at 7:07 pm Reply

      Thank you for understanding :). I will slowly make my way back. For now, it will be around one post a week. Please look forward to my content <3

  2. T July 4, 2017 at 5:03 am Reply

    I hope you feel better soon and trust that better things are in store!

    • Christina July 8, 2017 at 6:56 pm Reply

      Thank you :). I trust that things will change as well.

  3. Anouk Unvientodeleste July 4, 2017 at 7:06 am Reply

    Please be happy and quiet, we will be waiting for you. Take care!
    Estate traquila y feliz, te esperaremos 😁 ¡Cuídate mucho!
    Kisses/Besos

    • Christina July 8, 2017 at 7:07 pm Reply

      🙂 Thank you for your kisses, they were well received.

  4. Jiawun July 4, 2017 at 8:35 am Reply

    I’m so sorry life has been so rough on you, Christina. I pray that everything will be better for you. Stay strong, and take care of yourself. No need for explanations, life & health comes first <3

    • Christina July 8, 2017 at 7:19 pm Reply

      Thank you for your prays, your too kind.

  5. Minna July 4, 2017 at 10:04 am Reply

    I am a grateful reader of your blog. I really appreciate the hard work you put into the blog to make it so special. Please take all the time in the world to take care of your health. YOU are what makes the blog special. I am wishing you the best. Your readers will all welcome you back when you are ready.

    • Christina July 8, 2017 at 7:19 pm Reply

      Thank you for the reminder. I do need that from time to time.

  6. Anna July 4, 2017 at 11:31 am Reply

    OH my god Christina

    Your health should be your #1 priority. Take care of yourself, your family and friends.
    I’m sure all your readers here /reddit/insta followers know this. I recently started following you and honestly with the little that I garnered from your social media I wouldn’t have guessed you were under so much shit.

    Fuck cancer.
    one day at a time my friend

    • Christina July 8, 2017 at 7:25 pm Reply

      Oh girl, I don’t have cancer haha. It’s just fibro lumps that needs to be taken care of. <3

  7. bea July 4, 2017 at 10:57 pm Reply

    I just discovered your blog and I’m sorry to hear about your health. Sounds like you’ve overcome many obstacles. When you look back, this will all make more sense! And remember, a bad day or week doesn’t mean you have a bad life. Your health should always be a priority but try to remember what used to make you happy and do more of that. If it was blogging, do that. Sometimes doing things can be exhausting but in the end, it may give us the energy and revitalization we need. Sending you good vibes from California.

    • Christina July 8, 2017 at 7:26 pm Reply

      Thank you for your encouragement, I will keep this in mind :). I like being honest with my blog so people can remember that I’m still a human being and I’m running the same race called life.

  8. Mariko July 5, 2017 at 10:07 am Reply

    I’ve been a lurker for a while but have to comment on this! You have nothing to be sorry about. I enjoy reading your blog, but hey, it’s a BLOG. It is not life or death. People will wait. It would be insane for someone to judge you because that person perceives you aren’t blogging frequently enough. You just take care of yourself!

    • Christina July 8, 2017 at 7:26 pm Reply

      Haha hello lurker! Nice to meet you~~

  9. Ai July 9, 2017 at 7:36 am Reply

    Hi Christina, I’m sorry to hear of your situation Just want to say that I enjoy your helpful posts. I hope things work well for you soon!

  10. Midori July 12, 2017 at 2:25 pm Reply

    I’m so sorry to hear this. You will be in my prayers, dear. I wish you a speedy recovery. Sending you lots of love.

  11. Elissa July 13, 2017 at 11:12 am Reply

    I’m also a long time lurker who felt like I needed to comment. First, I am so sorry for everything you’re going through right now, and you’ll be in my thoughts. <3 Second, you do not need to apologize! Or even offer an explanation, although I am grateful for it as a reader, in part because it gives me the opportunity to offer my condolences on the passing of your grandfather and best wishes for a speedy recovery and full resolution of your health issues. Your physical and mental health and wellbeing have to be a higher priority than this blog. Take care of yourself, be kind to yourself, and know that so many people out there appreciate you, want the best for you, and will be patiently waiting for if/when it makes sense for you to return to blogging. Even if you never post again, your blog has been an invaluable resource for me and you've truly made a difference in my life. Thank you so much. You are amazing and I'm honestly in awe of your strength and determination. Sending lots of positive, healing vibes your way!

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