This has been on my mind for a while, so I guess I’ll just say it here. I think its time for an explanation.
Back in December of 2016, I got an email stating that I was finally accepted into the baking/ pastry course I waited for two years to get in. I essentially quit my job to pursue a better and higher education, but I knew my blog would suffer. It was honestly hard to let go but it had to be done. From the normal three full reviews a week down to one a week if I was lucky, I’m stressing out. I went for it. I took the opportunity knowing my blog will suffer but it had to be done.
February 2017, went to get my annual breast check up. If you don’t know that story, you can read it here. I had a big lump growing and I knew it was there. This time, it was slightly painful when my time of the month came but I was praying I wouldn’t have to do yet another surgery. Ultrasounds done, sitting in the doctors office, waiting for good news.
“So, we’re going to have to remove this lump. It’s getting too big, it has to come out.”
“Is there anyway we can wait for a year to remove this? I have to attend school for a year.”
“No, you have to get this removed in the next three months, it’s getting too dangerous.”
I’m not going to lie, I was broken when he said that. Just when I thought things were looking up for me, I had to made a decision. Gamble and do the surgery, pray I heal in four days to be able to go back to school or have to wait yet another year to possibly attend the course. My bro and my boyfriend said I had no choice, health comes first. Do the surgeon. I wanted to run away but I knew if I did, they would tranquilize me, tie me up and bring my body to the hospital. Fine, I’ll do it. Luckily for me, things worked out with the school and I was able to do the work ahead of time and still be able to go back after I healed.
It’s over. After a fibroadenoma literally the size of a walnut came out, I was heal right? Last time? No, NO. They needed to make sure it won’t come back because they found something new. Tissue sample, they need tissue sample. So June 28, 2017 surgery again. I knew I got this, it was just annoying I had to get it done again. I’m still healing as we speak but at least this time it only took couple days to heal.
Okay, no more. Let me just cruise for a bit before life hits me again. Life? Nope… grandpa just passed away today.
So if your wondering where the hell I am, I’m trying to survive. Trying to survive in this game called life. I’m sorry if I’ve been away from this blog, away from Instagram. I barely have time to sleep and I’m trying to balance everything out. Please be patient with me for a little bit. I’m determined to find time for everything. I’ll be back. This isn’t goodbye, this is just an explanation.
If you care enough to read this till the end, thank you. Thank you for sticking by me and trusting my judgement, thinking of me as a friend. I hope you all have a good day and please, stay healthy, hold your loved ones close.